Saturday, March 19, 2011

Magical Moment 408, "Shadows"

Those of you with an over active imagination, take one step forward. It's a curse and a blessing, am I right? It can be fun, creative, inspiring, and productive. When I was a little girl, I don't often remember complaining that I was bored. I played queen and slave with my sister, and never minded one bit that I was always the slave. That made a better story line anyway. I never got bored in school because even though I wasn't listening a lick to the teacher, I had plenty of doodles to keep me occupied in my spiral notebook. And all that diligent note-taking in Sunday morning sermons? Well, I wrote some of my best break up songs during that preaching. On the other hand, my sister now feels guilty about forcing me to be the slave so many years ago. She thinks it affected my self esteem. My grades, I've always had to make an extra effort to stay focused in school. And church, well, I know what my priority should be there.

It's like trying to control a beast. Some people struggle with gambling, adrenaline highs, or other impulses. I struggle with staying reasonable. Not over-reacting. Not over-worrying. Not over exaggerating every little thing. In childhood, I could make a tree into an enchanted castle. In adult hood, I can make a mole hill into a mountain. And believe me, I DO!

It's like seeing a shadow of a mouse that's magnified on the wall and has become some great, terrifying monster! It doesn't matter what it really is, it only matters what it has become in my mind. Shadows are misleading. They're usually lies. Of course, if you know they're only shadows, you can control your fear. Reason with it. So I've done it before, and I'll do it again. That black, intimidating mountain on the wall? It's no mountain at all. It's only a mole hill. And its steps lead to the conquerable top.


If every shadow were as lovely as this
stained glass door, I wouldn't worry!